101 Dalmations

Watta night... It was pretty hot during the day though not as hot as yesterday or few days ago. I did mention "watta night" but it's just the usual Saturday night. The good thing is that I found a place with good Thai food. Delicious tom-yam I dare say. Was thinking on where to have a dinner for Mother's Day and dad came out with this place that his friend mentioned. No, it's not a fancy restaurant or dining place but rather a stall ala restaurant located somewhere in Cheras's Taman Muda. That place is run by Thai's so no comment there. Finally, a place for me to get some decent tom-yam after craving for it for so long.

So, that is all for Mother's Day. Yeah I know. Such a bad son of me not doing anything fancy for my mom. Tell you what. Suggest some ideas for me that I could probably do for Mother's Day that I won't get nag at. Something new. Something fresh. This is your homework.

Back to 12am, am wrapped up with blankets in my room with the air-condition being turned on with a good decent temperature. Only thing missing is some white flakes to look at outside the window while sipping a cup of coffee. Still, I got some sentimental ballads turned on as always. Been awhile since I played all these too. Ahhh. The beautiful sound of the piano for each songs. Why are most ballads using piano to add the emo-ness? No idea. Enlighten me.

Don't think I'm emo just because I'm listening to all these. Think of it as a relaxation therapy. If I'm really emo, mind you, I would be listening to trance. Weird? I think so too.

Exam is in 5-6 days. How well prepared I am? No justification there. Help! That's all I can say. My brain haven't been in-tuned to study lately. All I can think of is what are the un-checked items listed on my tasklisk sticking somewhere in my cubicle and how am I going to make it a check without a new un-checked item coming in like a rolling stone. I won't or will not try to justify just how much I have to do. All I can say it's a pain in d ass. Though now that I mention this, I was quite taken aback and saden by how I was being underestimated in what I am doing and how much I'm doing (note: this is an emo statement). Am not sure how long this had been but still, if such thought is to occur, definitely it has got to be there for awhile now.

Reading back. The way I'm typing this post out looks very mono. Blame it on the brain dead. Have patience. Am gonna try copy some new writing formats after I've finish devouring the 2 new books I bought but still left unopened in the drawer.

Oh well!

Happy Mother's Day!

PS: Maybe I'll post up some pictures I've been taking with my I-phone.

Excuses

Goodness! Nowadays I'm just too tired, lazy, packed and many more excuses to post up much on the blog. :p

A lot of things are yet to be said. But as above, :p

Busy busy

Man! Each time I've some inspiration to blog or post something up I would lose all these ideas or motivation to write them up by the time I switched my laptop on and check my Facebook. Just an update, been busy at work all week long. Consolation for being a hardworking employee would be 2 movies night out (Madagascar II and Twilight) and a company sports club annual dinner. Guess what! I was in the performance team. Somehow I always get forced to participate in this kinda stuff. Well, the good thing was that we actually won the other teams (it was kinda a surprise I dare say since there was this one team that could dance with a better oomph than us..HOT!).

On the negative side, something has been bothering me lately. By a lot too! I've been trying to get some advices from certain "professional"s but for now everything seemed to be in not really good looking. The best idea would still be my very own idea which is to chill out and watch. Tough!

Well, this is it. Ciao peepz!

Cleaning up the engine

Working is like taking a totally different path that you've ever walked. Even if you might have previous experience or knowledge of working but taking a turn from your usual life into a working life is a serious change. Why do I say this? Because I'm taking that drastic turn right now. And I bet somewhere out there, are people who agree with me.

I've been taking my new change for about 3 months now. No wonder how good I am being able to accustom myself to different culture or different environment where ever I go, I'm still taking my time. Childish to say this but there are too many good things to be sacrificed once work has started. I'm getting the income to enjoy life. So true! But at a cost too. I'm not fretting. I'm just sharing it out. A lot of people I know are always in desperate to start their working life as fast as possible. My advise is take things slow. Enjoy your current standing because time can never be wind back.

For now, I'll just take things slow. What ever I can handle, I'll take it. Else, KIV. Act spontaneously. I'm just to used to such actions. Planning is not really a forte of mine. It's my parents. I do not want to be too bounded by logical perceptions. This is my new stress-release program.

Am gonna start attending gym somewhere in mid of November. It's time to take things to action and shape up. Things will always turn out better if you tweak with the engine. I'm in lacking of releasing sweat for the moment. Which gym I'm gonna attend? Still undecided. The place with my most demographic preference of course!

Instead of thou

It's midnight. Before midnight, it was dusk. I noticed. I noticed the shape of the clouds during sunset. I noticed I haven't look up into the sky, my best solace, look up into the silver lining of every cloud, for a very long time now. No wonder the economic has been bad. Not the world economy, it's not affected by the up factor but my very own economical feeling and mood. In a spot of emptiness in the middle of the colossal of clouds, the orange-ness and gleaming gold of the sun ray shines right through signifying a provider of hope and direction which says, "Come this way." I did not reach out as I know, and I always do, that the view of the sky now, in midnight, will also says the same. This has been my solace.

I have to admit this. I have been lacking motivation and passion for these past several weeks. I've putting up effort in fifth gear to show a positive and optimistic side. But, as always, I could never muster to it all alone. I need companions. And as the only person aging 22 in the house, I seek companions out there. My brotherhoods and sisterhoods. I nearly forgot my best solace. I'm so unmotivated that I had seek the darker and lonelier path. Among the shadows cast by the walls on both sides of a lonely lane. Tonight, I remember, that there is always a dark friend that has been comforting me for these many years now. It's dark but it still sparkles. The stars scattering randomly made it that way.

I hold a grudge. Against you. Against your kind. I finally realized that I've not let go. Not even after these years. My grudge to sum up itself will hold a history textbook looked shameful. You've outwitted me. For that, I seek surrender. But I let go off my white flag with a taint of mistrust and grudge. I seek to change but I missed. I missed out several trains that would have lead me to a better platform far away. But I was bearing too much of this grudge. I could not blame you. I myself did the same before also. It is as what the old ones say, "What goes around, comes around."

In times of putting up a brave and bold front, I've always putting up a negative on my back. I need someone who would support me else instead of thou.

A Bitching Post

*DO not start reading since the post would contain "impolite" contents*

Ahem*

I wrote the warning up there about 3 hours ago then left it untouched. When I was driving home from work earlier (bout 8ish PM), my mind was a turbulence. I was venting up alot of anger and frustration on many things especially on myself. This is just one of those days (male PMS). Anyhow, the warning above was meant for things that I wanted to write when the turbulence was at full power having need the curses such as fuck and stuffs. Let's see if I can still muster back the anger and frustration for this post.

Tic toc...

Tic toc...

Tic toc...

Tic toc...

Tic toc...

Tic toc...

I can't! But I can still put in the details.

When I was young and studying hard (maybe...) someone told me that I would get the chance to enjoy life when I finish my education and start working. I have finished my education (supposedly) and have started working, but I don't see which part of it is enjoying life. I go to work early in the morning, spent nearly 12 hours in the office working on something that until now I'm not sure whether I like it or not, coming home to study for professional papers! What is this?! It is just so lifeless and baseless! Study? I thought (and so I did when I was young) that once I finished my tertiary and begin to get my own salary, I wouldn't need to touch book (in a short term at least) and at least get to enjoy life as I wanted to more. I graduated on May, went on a trip for a month, came back somewhere in June, and what! Open my books for examinations again! And starting working! Honestly, I did strayed off my path in studies once in awhile but I was still pursuing it while hindering much tempts and desires. I bare myself with the thought I would get to enjoy life later. What I do notice now is things that should been done in young age, I did not!

My daily schedule is like home to work to home to food to books to bed and the cycle continues. Weekends? I don't even go out that often during weekends having most of my time spent in the house or sometimes in the gaming center. My lifestyle changed! It is not satisfying anymore! There are many more activities that I've been exposed to and am currently unable to continue on. Right now, my lifestyle is no different than a fucking nerd or a Japanese otaku sorta person (no offence)! If there is one thing I don't wanna be is a nerd. I lived that lifestyle before and am satisfied that I should pursue my other lifestyles. Speaking of being a nerd...

I'm fucking gutless (seemed to me I'm getting back on fire)! I've been in a deficit for bout years now! It's time to revolutionary process into something else. At least not a deficit! Our Malaysian standing and situation is in a shit now and if something new is to happen I do hope that something new might occur to me now! Back to the point, I'm fucking gutless and useless. Came back like for 3 months already and I did set my eyes on 2! But what can I say besides the F word. First one was like, "Oh, it won't happen. This and that. Not to forget some of the dumb rules!". I wasn't dare enough to give some hints. I did give but nothing on the big side. Not that she will notice. Anyhow, like I said, "Screw it!" Then I decided to try with the second one. And what?! The best I could do in a week is to just get a few messages and chats? This is so depressing! Quoted from a friend, "I need a chick! With a bottle of whisky too!"

The above paragraph did show how "wai lui sei" I am right at this moment. But some of you might not get the part of having someone next to you. Seeing someone who changes the beat in your life. Life might be thrill or still but having someone that enters and remixes the tune would just make a song out of it. Sometimes I thought back and say, "I didn't treat them good enough." Blame myself for it. Sometimes I'm just too stupid. By the way, everyone knows this but so far, the person who did remixes my tune alot was what alot of friend named as "the bitch" (Rain and Danielle being the main people responsible for it, not that I'm gonna argue it now) but at least I did get some of those "happy feelings" that you can't get normally. Therefore, I want those feelings (different people of course)!

Advices are welcomed but not of those that I can tell what you are gonna say just by knowing you and seeing your face! Would be best if ideas on courtship is given, I've seemed to have dried out. DAMN WORKING!

Self torture

You did never realize. Me too. Not until now when it is too late. Or too much?

-Jack (in a quiet night)

I noticed that Wilson changed his blog layout (look for his name some where on the left). Not that it came as a surprise since he might wanna just spice things up on his blog but it's the layout that shocks me alittle. You see... Wilson's the type of person that likes to make his blog looks artistic (in his sense) just like his previous blog layout. With having something that is code-written and unique. However, this so-called new layout looks normal and "stable". Something which is not his type I think. Anyhow, I came into a conclusion (given the layout and his postings) which is that Wilson has changed and move on to another phase in life. Which makes me wonder, have I?

After graduating, I believe I had. Alittle only though. First big change is that I'm working full time (duhh...) and am getting fixed salary plus using my own money. I've become much more homely too (since after work is just brain-dead) while still having my unner desire to go wild all night long and such. Anyway, are those the only changes that I've been through during these few months? Are those external changes the only things that I've gone through? One thing I do know is I've quiet down alittle. I'm in the path of getting my directions right again. I've strayed off too far from what I wanted (though what is it that I want?). This is an irregular feeling I always get after I listen to some sappy songs.

On a different tune, I'm fickle. Can't describe much but I can tell you that I'm fickle. Which made me realized why the game which I have loved so much all these years, I'm still suck! I lack focus and am fickle. Could have continued on my shooting streaks (note: my percentage was seriously high when I was bout 17) but I was fickle and let something disrupt me. Anyway, the past doesn't mean anything anymore.

Ok! This is a moody post. I'm pretty dissapointed in myself. I'm dissapointed in sense that I'm too egoistic now. I'm too much of a pussy to take chances. I'm too brain-eyed to keep my attention to a single thing. My flow is disrupted. The worst thing about this is that I can't get a dozen of beers to drink while wallowing it to anyone at all (my best solution is not doable for this). Oh God! Where's the light?

Monday Grunts

Have been trying to study for about 40minutes! But my brain is just too worn out today. It has been a not-too-good Monday. Well, things are messy and hectic in the office these few days with everything rolling out and stuffs. Anyhow, am gonna try to continue tomorrow. I mean both work and studies! I actually have to reach office by 7.30am to have breakfast with a colleague and then finish up our work. Studies shouldn't be much of a hassle as this is meant to be progressive. But still, got to do it! Funny, I kinda welcome studying (I hope it lasts) as it carries a small essence of youth that I've left since I graduated. Anyhow, studying alone is still different from studying together-gether with folks from Corn-Field. At least I get some (maybe too much) stress-relief moments. Plus laughing along with everyone bout something as stupid as silly as a seahorse is the best right! Haven't got a good laugh for ages now. Everyone's just too busy. Will try to think of something wacky in due times (most probably when I'm bout to burst).

Though seriously, I find myself having more focus ever since I came back to KL. Not in everything. But since I just mentioned studies, the focus did went up more. Kinda getting back the feel of handling exam pressure from old times. Mostly because of KL essence that I'm more comfortable with. Though I'm kinda losing more and more focus in working out and exercising (which I will get back to schedule starting this weekend).

This weekend is something to look forward to. With next Monday being a public holiday and Sunday, Sunday! Gonna go to Kuala Selangor to have seafood with a bunch of people from the neighborhood. Dad's friends and their families. Anyhow, at least some traveling would do me good. That's why I'm gonna slog myself to end this week as soon as possible!

On a side note, I really wanna try our Euphoria in Ministry of Sound. Audrey said to go on Thursday but most probably I can't! Work on Friday (I wanna get high)! Plus, I already have a not-to-be-missed food appointment for dinner! So, please make it on Friday! The chances of me able to go would go up by a minimal of 1%!

Anyway, post ends here. I wanna go listen to some oldies and read up Thirteenth Tale (Michelle! You should be proud! This is my 3rd reading. Damn addictive. Actually so does any other novels I read but you should).

P.S.: Wilson, my reply on MSN was a lie! Cheers!

This is dumb. Two posts in less than 30minutes.

But the thing is,

I need to dance!!!

I need to club!!!

All those nigger beats are getting into me!!!

Purpose

We grow up. From the days when we were still sucking onto our milk-bottle till today or even the future. Anyway, the point is we grow up. All these years of growing up and learning are actually a way for us to sew on what is it that we want to do. As the title said, our purpose.

The beginning or the early years that we had, all and all accumulating in their own sort of patterns and distributions for us to know what we want to do for ourselves, for our future. And by now, most people would already have a rough idea on their lives' purpose while some might even already known of it ages ago and are already half-way into achieving it. However, knowing or not knowing our purpose now, it is after being heavily influenced by our environment. It might help or it might close an eye not lending you a hand. I'll have to put it in such ways that most of the time, only the determined ones are able to receive the lending loan needed.

As for I myself, the lending hand has not reached me yet. I do not blame. As, even now, I'm still unaware of my own purpose. Would I want to set my purpose as to bring up my career to as far and as successful as possible? Would I want to set my purpose in other fames that I might be interested on? Would I set my purpose to just live day by day, minutes by minutes and of course every moment counts?

My inner-self is telling me, living on day by day on a regular routine would not get me satisfaction. My inner-self claims putting in some beats into my regular world would definitely brighten up my mundane world. My conscious tells me that I should live on as simple and as attentive as possible while cherishing every moment to build a proper and stable life. My conscious tells me too that in the world nowadays, being successful would definitely gives me the feeling of euphoria. What is success? For me, it's just being and doing better today than yesterday. My heart tells me that being happy for yourself is a success. The question comes back every time then, which way is what?

The feeling of purpose-less really does take its toll on people or at least for me. Knowing what I want to do would definitely make me feel better. Not knowing takes away the energy from me. Heartless to do, clueless on myself, drive-less to be happy.

I've known the happiness and the great feeling of having a purpose or at least know what to do before. I could only say that those times were the 2 years where I did my college. I have control of my desires and walkings. I do have a protocol that I would need to follow of course such as courses that I'll need to take. But at the same time, I was given the call to take up my very own like-able courses. One of the reasons I have loads of funny courses in my list but at least I know I want them. Having or knowing what you want is what I believe that sets you to be happy and to be yourself as what that 2 years in college have done to me. I was myself.

Dedicated to booze

Where has it gone to?

Those night where we can just get booze in the house and savor it till our hearts content or till pissed drunk...

Seriously, such nights are in need!

Damn! I miss chilling and drinking sessions!

Nights!

A letter to someone

To someone,

I'm not sure who you are while you might be wondering who wrote this. Bear with me, as you read through the scripture written by someone of no importance.

I have left your port. A port where I have been anchoring my ship for a long time. Since as long as the kids down the street can remember. Since as long as I found this wonderful port. I set sailed once in awhile though not into a far distance. I return to the port that for me, seemed so much like a comfort nest. You fixed every board that was loosen. You gathered that many children around to listen to my grunts while weeping to my groans. There were times where the sea seemed so harsh to my ship and tore away my sail but coming back to your port makes it all fine again. The white sail changes color every time my ship anchors in as you would bring along your colored clothes to replace it. Times were such that my ship howls on the impossibility of sailing with these clothes but you changed them anyhow and the ship sails just fine.

Many waves have splashed the bay, we do not know how many. It was time for my ship and I to move on across the vast blue wonder. I'm a voyager not a stow-ager. Under the clear conscious of a brightly lit night, I set my white sail and started my long journey once again. Leaving your port that was once a home to me. For my ship, for myself. A place of solace.

Now, in the midst of a starry night, I once again hope that my battered ship is to be mend again by your port. How battered and worn out has it been since my ship sailed. The sea which has never cease to be harsh on my ship has tumbled it upside down and downward up. It is time for my ship to find a port once again. To rest, to be mend, and to be merry. Though I have lost my way to go back to your port.

From,
The writer

Tenacity is just not here

Am supposed to blog something tonight but the mood is just not there!

It's something to do with having money!

I hope I get my paycheck soon!

There's so many things to buy!

So many things to do!

So many things to say!

Oh well... Everything can wait!

Screwed up!

Its midnight! Again!

Well, I'm still alive!

Have been uber busy with god-knows-what-I-do!

I'll just put it in my usual tempo: I screwed up! Though not sure what I screwed up, I have a feeling I screwed up something!

Oh yeah! I'm starting to feel the I-should-not-have-declare-to-continue-single-life syndrome right now due to some utmost secretive reasons!

Nights!

Hammering Thoughts That Should Be Typed Out

Fuh..................

Just finished the series "Forensic Heroes II" after a week's chase. Kinda lagged behind cause I had to wait for mom's free time! Anyway, a typical TVB series which will definitely set all viewers in motion just like any other. So, do watch it if you're interested. I don't usually have any bad reviews on stuffs I watch (except for Harry Potter movies though I still catch them when it's out) since I throw away 90% of all my sense of logics and rational. I could probably say whether the movie or drama or cartoon or anything on screen is awesome to watch or good to watch or for entertainment maybe or watch it when all the good ones are done. So no harm to the producers there right! *wink



Anyway, fellow readers who watched the "Forensic Heroes II" already and know details on it, do leave a comment here telling me what's the name of the song that comes out for every relationship scenes! Thanks!

I went to Clique Lounge with a bunch of friends (not really a bunch since there's only 4 I know) last night because it just opened (typical KL-ians to go to any new spots to chill). The short review I would give is that its not a bad place to chill out and have a cocktail or two with friends should mamak doesn't sound too appealing at certain nights. Though keep it mind only to chill and have a drink. Definitely wouldn't go there should you feel hyper and wanna start dancing with every partner you can get. But I definitely saw good looking ones in the lounge last night (note that I'm only referring to the girls in the lounge) so should you feel moody and wanna get to know some new people, its not a bad place to try out. Oh, the place is in Piccolo Hotel where the Piccolo Mondo used to be in Bukit Bintang.

After some booze (which I needed after some time), we head out to watch Hellboy II! Spoilers ahead! Not too much spoilers too kill ya off but I would say expect to go there for a laugh rather than the action! Oh! Make sure you notice the penis during the show! Had a good laugh on that scene !@#$% (definitely under the influence of alcohol)

I just realized my alcohol tolerance has went down quite a bit. Not to say that I have a high tolerance for alcohol but fairly okay to keep myself sane after some drinks. After thinking back a little, I would say it definitely had gone down compared to when I was in the States.

To all readers, especially those who were fairly exposed to my long delayed of "Love and Lust" posting, I finally have clues on what I think I wanna write about. Now I'll just need more information to add on the posting that I wanna put!

Initially I wanted to talk about my reputation on being a true "wai lui sei" but was having writer's block on what I really wanted to explain about. Somehow, I really live to my reputation! Proud of it! Though still a WLS, I think I wanna pull back some of the essence and live low for a moment. Surprised? Me too! It's just one of my "bu neng shuo de mi mi"s and I think it's wise of me to do this now. Though I will still keep a lookout for pretty ladies on the street or anywhere, but just gonna keep it to a bare minimum!

Nights people!

Desperate House-moment

Its midnight and I'm boreddddd.........

What's worse? Its a Friday NIGHTTTTTT!!!!!

I'm supposed to be out but here I am making blog post!

Well, Wei Yee did ask me whether I wanna go Icebar or not but I ain't getting any reply from here after that! Typical of her though! :p

Anyway, my room television is actually on now and I'm catching glimpse of Desperate Housewives. Never really follow the series but this is not right!

I want to live up some of my own life. Really, since I came back I haven't really been doing anything that I wanted without glitches coming up. Plus why do I feel like I don't get the feeling of being a 22.

Man, this is a night of frustration. Maybe I'll just need to get a job and everything will be more okay to my half. When I get the salary, when I get the ........ (just too many to list down)

The exam, the job applications, the too much of staying INDOOR, the restless sleep, the bu neng shuo de mi mi, the urge of going to the club and just dancing while boozing myself of, the too much of "be careful and safe" kinda environment and loads more I think. . .

Those kinda stuffs are bad for people in my age I dare say!

Note: I think I just need to get drunk and be done with it!

P.S.: The job interviews I had so far are okay I think!

"Di mana ada perjumpaan, di situ ada perpisahan"

This is one of the popular phrases or quotes that were being used during my high school days in my essay writings. I had not truly to be able to grasp the meaning and feeling behind this quote as to me friends of mine are always there. However, after two and a half years living, growing, and observing, I truly understand this quote now.

I have just finish my last course finals this morning. This marks the end of my continuous years of pursuing formal education. How long have it been? I don't really know. Anyhow, after this Sunday's commencement, most of us will depart our paths differently and live to walk hard. Some being up in the North, some in the East, South would definitely have some and West would always be welcoming. I, myself would be going back to the far East. Back to what I once and still am calling HOME.

Home! A word that everyone has and cherishes. KL has always been the best place for me. But the States has not been bad either. I made friends. Friends who drink and party crazy with me, friends who share dinners with me, friends who call up to you if there is anything to "inform", friends who will be friends!

After all those words up there, I bet most of you must be starting to miss me already! So what I'm gonna say is and I will say again soon is....

THESE 2.5 YEARS HAVE BEEN GREAT! I'M GONNA MISS ALL YOU SO MUCH WHEN I GET HOME! DON'T FORGET TO HOLLER K!

Could only find this picture with all our recent looks. Should take one again soon!

PS: Graduation 18th May 2008. Make sure there's graduation gifts!!! hehe. . .

Its only words...

Writing what ever that comes into my mind at the moment is the best way to ease my brain right now. Just let it all go out! All those fragments of unused wandering around words, equations, thoughts, theories and much much more.

Here we go. . .

Dead
Time
Ache
Neck
Blur
Words
Air
Pillow
Water
Itch
Drown
Deep
Dry
Dark
Serene
Tick
Gun
Jump
M1
M2
M3
Repo
Careless whisper
Stretch
Lone
60s
70s
Saxophone
Roses
Ramen
U.S.
Drake


Its enough! I'll just go and sleep!

Nights~

Something you tend to forget

I believe everyone has the feeling and thought once in awhile where you hope that God would by somehow a slip of chance perform a miracle that you want. Unfortunately, life isn't this way and you've gotta work hard for it. I realized this a long long time ago but forgot about it until recently. I suppose that at some point in life you tend to forget and let go some important "ways of life" s that make you a person you really are. Luck isn't something that you look at upon the stars and pray hard that God would hear you out and lend a hand while all you did was just sitting under a coconut tree. Luck to me was something that I work on it knowing happily that it will happen because its done by myself and not by any other outsiders. I just remembered that awhile ago. How did I forget such an important thing? I think I got too lucky and happy.

Good night!

Note: Love and Lust would be premiering at some point of time but I'm still unsure when!
I'll be putting up a post of the two greatest teachers I had in my life.

In such a night...

Des Moines has finally turn green! What a relief after months of seeing it in white. Its also the time where I can actually open my window now and not having the cold sensation lingering at every part of my body. With such a beautiful weather what's better than is to have a clear night sky filled with stars accompanied by the buzz of crickets!

Okay! Okay! I know I'm being sissy-like again but listening to old ballads such as Careless Whisper (which is currently blazing up in my room) aren't really helping me not to either! I suddenly remembered something my buddy used to love to say once when we were in high school. It goes on like this:

In such a night, did pretty Jessica blah blah blah (I could only remember half of it! Anyway, what important to him at that time was the girl's name)

Right now, I'm gonna try my very own modified version:

In such a night, is my soul still lingering in the cry cool air of spring not knowing where it should settle down on? In such a night, am I still thinking on what I could have done to make things better now? In such a night, am I having regrets on decisions that I have made? In such a night, would a cup of hot steamy coffee help to ease my beaten up mind? In such a night, would those that I care for think of me too? In such a night, in such a night, in such a night, would I be still having this kind of thoughts and feeling in such a night?

My friend, Rain told me recently that she wanted to rebut some of my opinions which I have post up on my blog but couldn't find the right words to express. This is what I'm having at the moment and the best I could do in such a night is to write out those questions that I can best relate my feelings on.

Night everyone!