Made my day

Effing good shit! It only took me 20minutes to reach office this morning! Woot! That means more time to read google news and yahoo! finance. yeah right! hahaha... though the best shot is en-tour to office few of the good shit songs got played CONSECUTIVELY! Isn't that awesome?!

And on another note! Wilson's gonna follow my old footsteps soon! Hahaha... Fucked up dy the fella!

Knock off

This is a sad news...

I hit a cat while I was driving today. It would have much better if I killed it straight. I'm not being cruel here but I guess I only hit it's back half portion. It's gonna die soon so why must I let it die a painful miserable death? Feeling unease of such cruelty that I put upon the poor cat. Amen

Oh... I'm planning to go on a gruffly kinda look. Plan ta keep my facial hair... What's your take readers?!

99th posting!

I love to read story books and novels. That is why I tend to prefer words over figures. However, I chose a job that mostly deals with figures instead of words. Then a chance for me to brush back my writing skills in my job dance beautifully in front of me, but I took off to the road of figures dumping the words once again. That's why this site has been left empty for months. I dropped my thinking pen, tuck it in nicely into the drawer and draws it out once again tonight.

I'll try ta write up a pretty post here. Another excuse for me to hid my pen all these while is that I always complained (to Flora especially, since she bugs me to update here) that I've got no inspiration or no ideas on what to put. Now that I think of it, what better to post up for now than my own personal vain update?!

Let's try shall we!

A brief introduction first though! I'm Jack. Been dumping this happy, exciting, emo yadah yadah site for 4 months now! Haven't gone shopping in ages, well, I think since Chinese New Year. Sounds wrong right? But yeah! It's kinda hard to get the clothes that will start my drive on shopping spree here in KL. Yes! I so so so missed the shoppings in the States! Especially those jackets! Soon people... Soon! Anyhow, Jack is still Jack. Still very jumpy too! It's still too early to settle my ass properly on something firm. It prefers to dangle in the air!

Okay... What's more to write? Hmmm... Pictures? I don't have much pictures of myself taken recently too. I'm not a cam-whore sorta person. Haha... Was reading my previous posts and there was a post with Hendrik (Michelle's Pappa Rich) saying my blog is too wordy. Hahaha! Ooops!

Okay! Okay! Back to main point. Updates... Updates! Heck! I got one!

And that is...

The End.... For now... ta!

Happy 2009

Yeah man! I know this is a bit late but... BETTER LATE THAN NEVER..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! HAPPY 2009 folks!

My resolution?

Kena lottery?! :p

Witthout You Day: 3289

Wow... How time flies? And yet I'm still writing this?! Goodness! Rindu-nyeee

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Amazing day! Thanks everyone for all those many wishes! Especially those few who called or tried calling me all the way from U.S. Really apppppreciate it!

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Amazing day too (more like night)! Got myself pissed drunk again! A few regrets there and here but I'll passed it soon. Puked out stuffs from both my stomach and heart. Crap!


Anyway... Thanks!

P/S: I realized that Korean girls are quite hot too whether real or not! But I'm loyal!

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I'm gonna exploit my blog! Indirectly~~

I'm gonna be turning "old" soon and I've no idea how to make it into a fun gather gather...

I've finished exploiting! Now you all know!

Please prepare accordingly... Hahaha!

An update

As promised. An update!

For those who missed Keny and Sook's wedding ceremony and dinner. Don't worry. I bet your passion for shark fin soup or the fun were present. I felt the Force (being a Star War fan). Anyhow, now that's all over the bride and the groom deserve the short term rest.

What I'm gonna write below is gonna get this post a couple comments such as, "I told you lo, Jack!" or "You see... xxxx very nice ehh." sorta. Here goes,

As I was driving home to KL from Penang and vice verse on Friday, I definitely need to pass by the middle point of Ipoh. Ipoh being geographically situated among hills of rocks (batu kapur if my memory serves me well) made it something like Quillin of China. So, it's the Quillin of Malaysia. Not to forget, loads of my male friends had always made statements that Ipoh is famous for good looking people of the opposite sex. I've yet to be proven onto. Anyhow, I'm not gonna start burning up my male hormone in this post. Maybe later!

So, as I was driving and looking in front tentatively, I was also admiring the nice scenery those stony rock-hills created. It's astonishing as for both of the times I travelled that certain stretch, it was like most of my bulks of negativity recently has been unloaded of my back. I feel refreshed. Not bad huh!

Not to mention, a few old songs that were played from my I-Pod randomness made me think back of my desires. Now I remember why I wanted to study in US all these years. It's because I read too many Archies (the song Sugar Sugar was being played) and watched too many old American movies (the very old ones). I got attracted to the features that were imagined when I was a kid.

When the song "Yesterday Once More" by The Carpenters was being played, I imagined back to the old times such as the 50s or the 60s where life (no doubt harsher) but much simpler than now. I got all these ideas from the old movies. Hollywood really got into me when I was a kid. I do hope some readers remember some of the movies showing a kid wearing a flat cap with checkered shorts running up an empty street with a few old Ford cars on the sidewalk while swinging their baseball bats or ice-lollies. Don't make me be the only one who still is a kid at heart.

So, yeah! Being refreshed and reminiscing all those old thoughts and memories definitely gave me some "Quantum of Solace" or how they put is as "Kebahagiaan Dalam Dunia Penuh Kesengsaraan". Kudos to our translators.

Anyhow, maybe I ought to travel up North more often. Okay Ipoh peepz. You may shoot me now!

Cough! Cough! Cough!

Here's an update. And I believe many would be laughing happily reading this phrase:

I'm sick!

Had a flu attack last Thursday night. Was all feverish the whole night (bad sleep due to my concept of fever = unpleasant dreams). Luckily, I only had a half day on Friday. I did got myself some really good medicine after work, which was finally getting my long awaited clothes from ZARA. Hahaha... That was an immediate cure. Though only for temporary. Immediately the day after which I had my steamboat (pictures and videos to be loaded on next post), the cough was incurable. I kept on coughing till the very now. Maybe I need more shopping. ( ^ .^)

I've been listening to this song a lot nowadays.

What you think!

I've been bitching a lot lately. Yes I know it!

So, that's why this time, this post is dedicated to all you readers out there who know me to bitch on this post!

What to bitch? Of course about the author himself! You can bitch anything you want about me. What you think about the author... Your author wants to change himself a little (not gonna go too much but maybe tiny little). Anyhow, cut things short, leave up the bitching and put anonymous if you want to (though I'll probably know who you are by how you type). Oh! Most importantly, it would be best if you could comment on my PR.

Ciao!

Rihanna

She's hot!

I mean Rihanna...

Been listening to her songs for some long time but did not really watch any of the MVs like till recently. Anyway, what can I say, for a young girl (younger than me too! She's only 20!), she's got the pretty look and the sexy look! What am I talking about? I have no idea! Haha... This is the song I like most from her list of goodies!



Oh! I heard on the radio recently that her latest bob hair-cut is an in-thing right now in for hair-dos. People (ladies of course) have been turning up into the salon and asking, "I wanna do the Rihanna." And I agree! That hairstyle looks good on girls with sharp features.

Rihanna Fall 2008 Hair-style

Video

Yo everyone! Was cleaning my files the other day and thought of uploading a video I made back in US before I left. Not that of an awesome video. Wish I could make something better! But anyhow, will try to improvise it one day! A big long video... I have loads of everyone's embarrassing videos and photos especially Wilson (you all know why). For now, ENJOY!

A Monday morning!

It's Monday morning and I'm doing this in my cubic!

It looks damn cloudy outside!!! Bad weather!!!

Anyhow, to those who commented on the previous post, just an update, operation started! *wink

Screw it!

Screw all this stuff that I've wondering these few days... Am not gonna do it after all! Screw it!

Yay! Life's so much happier now!!!

Oh yeah! Wei Yee @ Audrey's birthday celebration gonna happen later. She's gonna be 22. Damn old right! Me coming but still a few months away! Chilling...

The stroy goes...

I got a post!

It has been some period of time that I have something to post regarding myself. People have been asking me, "How are you?" and "What's new?" but I have nothing to tell. Life's been pretty mundane but I do have things to tell. Just preferred to keep it to myself. Kept it to myself until my headache tells me I gotta let go some air of the story. Oh well, at least I'm planning to tell it to one of my closest friend. Anyhow, the fella ain't replying my messages! Must be too "busy". Haha!

The story goes...

Mom's cooking is so delicious.
AmAssurance is where I'm working right now.
Denmark is a place where one of my good friend is right now.
Electricity is so costly nowadays.
Of all majors, why did I do Actuarial?
Fat is a nickname I gave to a friend of mine.
Headache is what I got today.
Only my dad's massage suits me best.
No one will get what this message meant.
Office is not a place I wanna stay my longer hours in.
Romance is not something I'm willing to put my stakes on for now.

I dare say, the story has some of the similar elements.

Enjoy!

Lost Control

I woke up this morning~ duhhh!

I woke up this morning feeling weird (not those stickiness issue weird of course). I tried recalling my sleeping memories and came into the conclusion that I have indeed lost my special ability. I asked myself, "How could that happen? Now I won't get any special attentions anymore!"

Guess what my special ability is. It's the ability to control my dreams. I can actually at times control what I want to dream and how I want it to be! Shocked? Well, I don't suppose so as there are quite a few people whom I know that can accomplish this too. I still remember though from my Psychology class with Mrs. Singh (she's damn cool!) that there are people that can control their dreams and I was one of the 2 in the class that actually could (the other was Sin). She even asked us to describe how we control our dreams.

Here is how I used to do it!

When I was still a kid, I usually create dreams that I want. Usually it's from events that happen on the day that I don't find it having a good continuation or conclusion. So therefore, I dream! It's like entering into a player set and I'll be like I wanna dream this. And there it goes. From the dream I'll walk through from the beginning of the event and watch the plot unfolds. When I reach the part that I'll need to decide which course of plot to go on, I'll choose and if I don't like it, rewind and play another set of course! Rewind as much as I want to change the plot! The only thing I can't do is fast forward. So everything goes on real-time.

As I grew older, I was like, I'll drop the idea of creating my own dreams and let it happen in randomness. I'll only do the course changes and enjoy. So, if I'm dreaming of a random event or scene, I'll just let it happen and enjoy until I'm asked to decide how to continue. The same applies. Plus, when I come to parts that I really like, I'll just keep on replaying that part while sacrificing the answer to the ending.

Anyhow, I was having loads of dreams last night and there was one that was exciting and funny too. But somehow, as much as I wanted, I can't control the course or rewind anymore. Everything has taken its own gear. Damn!

Does this kind of control goes away with age (because we lose control to so many things as we grow older)?

*pondering ( ? .?)

Mixed feelings

Hey y'all! How's it going? Been pretty quiet around here don't you think! Well, except for the previous post's comments which were surprisingly unexpected! I guess my readers here love reading me bitching about others and me posing pictures of myself huh... Now I know!

Well, that's the main course for tonight. Guess what? I changed my looks! I've become much better looking as compared to the last pictures in the previous post. ( ^---^) How should I put it? I looked aged a little more now with this look at the same time keeping my smiley look! And I didn't say these out of my own mouth! My colleague just told me today someone said I'm good looking! ( ^---^)

Actually, the truth is, I didn't change my looks my having a make-over or what. I just changed my spectacles that's all! Haha... What were you all thinking?! I'll post up some pictures taken from my phone of my new spectacles but no picture of myself yet. Waiting for my photographer to take for me! Haha...

Guess how would your author looks in these? More like an author duhhh

I think I'm having the (how should I put it) mature and mysterious look now! But I'm still young at heart! Haha! I'm just so full of myself today! ( ^3^)

Another picture that I wanted to post today is the "assam gai choy" that I had the other day! Sorry Rain! It's all finished! Didn't leave any for you at all! Haha... When you come back, I'll ask my mom to TRY and cook for you. Haha! No promise though! Mom might be too busy for my SNOW White MAYBE~

Your author was too engrossed in this dish that he forgotten to take a picture of it before eating! This is half way!

Readers! You all know of Jay Chou's "Secret" the movie don't you all! Well, my Setapak Kaki being a obsessed fan of course would know! Anyway, this is not about the log-headed guy but about the lead actress in the movie! The one with the asthma so sick that she would have a hard time kissing (damn it!). Remember? She's kinda cute ain't she? The point I'm trying to pin out is, recently I met someone who looked like her! Not 100% of course but somewhere of confidence level of 4-sigma. Goodness! I didn't really realize that until later. Ouch! Oh well, just thought of sharing info with the guys (especially those who are desperate). Anyone interested, tell me! I'll try my best to intro!

The title of today's post is "Mixed Feelings". Got the idea from one of old novels called "Mixed Magic". From what you have read up until now in this post, I seemed pretty happy. Yes, I am! But at the same time, I'm feeling kinda drained out and empty. Maybe it's because I have started my job and am not use to waking up in the wee hours again! This makes me cranky every morning! Even before I wake up I feel that. It's gonna take some time before I stop cursing under my breath, "I'm gonna sleep through it!"

Empty? Why empty? Well, with everything now at a new turning point, things have just seemed so routine-sort! This slot of time to that slot of time is this, later is that! This is so unreal! In life, in my life, there's gotta be some stereo in some part! Not too often, don't be so mono daily. Oh well, maybe it's just the beginning (I certainly hope so). Maybe after I grasp my own life back more then I would be able to move my own rhythm . Some might be wondering, what mono and stereo is he talking about? Well, for those readers who are my friends and who knows me, you are in for a surprise! An example would be, I've come back for so long but I haven't even yum cha till late at night or clubbing yet! This is sick!

Mind you! I haven't been going out much too even before my job started! Been busy with studying for exam and following what my guilt-conscious says in sitting still at home (I can tell you this has really been a difficult part). Plus like I said, everyone's busy in their own things. Anyway, I must start to be "active" more or I'll go nuts!

Oh! For those in the U.S., there is something that I really missed in U.S.! Surprised? Haha... Me too! Well, the thing I missed most is spontaneous we get and just do it! Like thought of going to the movies and just go! Like the thought of just going out in a particular night and everyone just tags along. It's pretty hard to do it here (for me). Well, yeah!

Like I told most of the people I know, "Without friends, Jack is more or less like a soulless body!" I just love to hang out and talk like a chicken buttock (what sorta phrase is that? Chicken buttock! *Snort). Tonight is gonna be one of those nights for me where you listen to some ballads and oldies, thinking of nothingness or life or anything that pops into your mind first. Had loads of those nights in the U.S. too, most of the time is because Michelle sent her A-Idol's dubbed old songs to me which made me just wanna listen to the BETTER, original singers. Anyway, my all time favourite sappy song is "Careless Whisper" by none other than George Micheal!

Enjoy folks!

Wanted!

The aroma of my mom's "Asam Gai-choy" is starting to fill up the entire house. How long have I not eaten this dish? Probably a year! Just how much I love this sourly spicy dish? Only those who have eaten with me when this dish is here knows. Meaning, family members would definitely know! This is the ultimate! Can't wait for tomorrow's dinner. I just hope that my bosses don't give me anything on my second day of work!

Oh! I bet lots of you are missing me and wondering how am I. So here's a picture which was taken not too long ago!

I'm not sure when the photographer stole this shot of mine but it does look pretty good (maybe I'm just too good looking). Anyway, that was how I looked like 2 weeks ago! Wearing my Nike hood which Mario has one too! Different color though!

Back to grunting, I just realized this not too long ago (somewhere around this week), it's so lonely in Wangsa Maju area nowadays! Goodness! The only people left here who are free nowadays are either Aaron or David! Well, there are others who stays nearby in Section 4 or Rampai but they're just too busy! Is this what they called everyone moving on with their own lives? Can't we have some fun some of the time? Though the blame would still goes to people who left Wangsa Maju area! Let's see...

Yee Ming aka Eming left to HUKM in Cheras. Most of the time he's there delivering babies. He does come back here during the weekends but unlike ancients ago, Eming must now dedicate his time properly between his family (his mom and dad) and his another family (girlfriend). So, what's left would be better for him to just rest and chill out! Being a wa-lui-sei myself and also friends of mine are typically the same kind, can't blame you too much. Nevertheless, I'm still writing this out so that you might feel guilty (should you feel like it laaa).

Wei Yee aka Audrey moved on to stay in Taman Desa! Family reasons, I understand. But that's just too far and "mafan" away! Plus I doubt she will ever come back and visit again! Most of the time I assume would be me going to her area! Another version of her tortures on the poor writer aka ME! It was Thursday on that day and I suddenly thought of going to the night market. I was like, "Hey, I feel like going to pasar malam tonight! I'll call and ask if Wei Yee wants to go?" My mom gave me a weird look and I wondered why. As I took the phone and on the verge of pressing the call button, it hit me! "Damn! She doesn't live here anymore!"

Flora aka my dearest blur sister is in Scotland or Belgium or (God knows where) somewhere in Europe. Gosh! She keeps moving around and I'm losing track on her path! Haha. . . She's not really my sister as in blood-related but we have some very weird relation. Anyway, this is the best person to blame! I just love to put the blame on her! I doubt this unfilial sister of mine would be coming back to this lovely country soon or in some further future. She's not the type of people who is really attached to home. Plus, she found some "happiness" in Europe I dare say. Not that it's an irritation for me every time she talks about it but I have a feeling that is her only topic which she is 100% knowledgeable of. Oh well, at least we don't expect to see around the corner!

For those who is like, "Yay! He didn't scold me!", don't be too happy! I'm just not writing out your names because the people mentioned above are the major players in my entertainment book around here. So, major players are those tend to get more bitching from me! Kudos!

Luckily, I found a few new names to put into my log book for filling in my empty and inactive time-slots. Know who you are! Wait till I get my wheels and I'll start floating around hunting for entertainments!

That's all! Back to finishing my Train Man. I'm suppose to read up company policies or something but oh well!

I'm so shy!

Still willing to post although I lost my way!

Pictures courtesy of one of those few newbies in my log book

Love and Lust

The Debut

Is love a subset of lust or rather is lust a subset of love? Sometimes people might wonder what they are really feeling; are they lusting for the bonding with someone or are they "lusting" for someone's love? What am I talking about? I'm not even sure of it myself. If I do, I would be living up in the mountains while having people climbing to the top asking me for the answer. So, this is for all to ponder!

My knowing

Lust. A popular word. Usually associated with sexual thoughts by many but is really that shallow of a word? Lust to me would mean temptations. I'm tempted by something or by someone, therefore I lust to have it. It might last long or short I do not know. It depends.

Love. Another yet even more popular of a word. People speak of it everyday. However, love is yet another form of temptation too. A stronger temptation would be it. A stronger temptation where you would feel willingly to succeed it. Temptations and ambitions. Rings a bell anywhere? Though in lust, I might feel bad of not achieving it, in love, I'll never feel good in long times should I don't get it.

My scenario

Lust. In every occasion, every place, every crowd, every time, there would be people. Among those people there might be someone, one or a few, who stands out more in front of your bedazzled eyes. You just can't help noticing them. Call it stalking, call it chemistry sparks (one or two-sided) but you would surely without fail try to associate yourself more with that side should chances shines brightly on you or your own iron grip to pursue.

Love. In every occasion, every place, every crowd, every time, there would be only that someone that stood out to your focused eyes. Better jewels might be sparkling but it won't last long. Your trance just goes back to the beat of that person. Surely, this time I would be my best being next to the person.

My dream

Lust. A lusty dream. Everyone would be delighted to get one. It releases tension that might have built up inside. How long can we remember or feel this lust? You can answer that.

Love. A lovely dream. Again, everyone would be delighted to get one. It soothes your thought of reality. Or does it happen in reality too? You hope and still taste the sweetness or bitterness of that lovely dream.

My loneliness

Lust. Companions next to you. As a verb, to take away time that sometimes come in extras. You do all sort of things hoping that time passes slower since the temptation lingers long in you to do that again, not knowing when you can.

Love. Companions next to you. As an adverb, for me to describe out what I want to list out in my never-ending stories of life. You do all sort of things though preferring not to do any but watches time passing by slowly and serenely. However, at a corner, you do hope that it could pass on even slower.

My confession

Lust. Do you need to confess your lust? Yes, you do. When you have a need that only by confession can you fulfill your lust. You confess of your longing to satisfy your need. Confession makes things seemed so easy. However, lust, confessions are to be done with the correct timing and attitude. You do not expect to get feed if you confess your hunger in a library don't you. Attitude leads us into another part of a story but I believe everyone will understand.

Love. Do you need to confess your love? Yes, you do but less. Should it be a daily confession of love, will it be love anymore or a mere habit? I myself has not confess love for a long time now. We love, we care, we indulge. Should it to be done, do it with a sense of purpose behind. Confession of love without a hidden agenda is just like confessing lust to people.

My status

Lust. I'm standing here now.

Love. I always thought I stood here.

End of Debut

Future Postings and Hellloooo

Yes yes yes... Here I am after a certain period of long absence... A few die hard readers have been starting to sound out their disapproval of my out-dated and empty blog. Since most of them are girls *ehem (from a typical wai lui sei fellow like me) I'll put up a simple post for today just to tell you people out there what I'm planning to post up in this very near future or actually just how off scheduled I am in my postings. You may very well be surprised. Haha. . .

So stuffs that I would need to shout about in this near future would be:

• Graduation III
• US to KL
• My journey in Eastern Europe (there's gonna be a good few posts on this trip I hope)
  
• Love and Lust (I wonder how many times have I postponed this but worry not, it will come out some day :D)
• Movie reviews (I missed out a lot of good movies already)

Yup. This is a brief post I dare say.

Oh! I forgot!

WOOHOOOOO ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

I'M BACK IN K LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! Satisfaction max people!

I do miss US okayyy (just the people living in it only). . . Especially the internet connection!

Some recent pictures of me to show you all that I'm still healthy and good looking despite my long away-ness.

Cheers!

Pictures are courtesy of my Eastern Europe trip!